I have been working in social services for about 6 years in various positions. I recently turned 30 (ahhhhh, I'm -0 old ha).. In each position, at some point, I encountered fear. Initially, at times, I would fall into the trap of "I should be passed this" OR " I should be bulletproof from feeling this crap". These thoughts were BS that my ego would use to throw me off balance and keep me from advancing. I don't look at the Ego as being something that makes me feel awesome, but something that isn't bashful at telling me I don't pack the gear to handle a situation, i.e. "this experience is out of my league"! The point that I am making here is that FEAR can and will show up, especially if I LACK EXPERIENCE with whatever it is I am walking through. The lesson I have learned, and relearned, is don't internalize it and feed the fear by allowing it to spook ya. Eventually, if persistant, it will bit by bit diminish. Difficult clients' (especially ones that think they're smarter than us) can be tolerance testers. There is no manual for every single situation! Sometimes I have to be willing to walk passed my feelings and step into discomfort and be trained by the experience. I have recently found myself online listening to webinars and reading other blogs about the social work world. I find it entertaining how politically correct many people have become these days. And how they use the big words to make themselves appear valuable. I find these blogs to lack substance.
I am starting semi-new territory here soon with a new program. My friend (motivator) fear has already joined me. I wont allow a little fear to spook me, for every moment I spend in fear is a moment that could've gotten me closer to the upgrade I am shooting toward.
